samus-merid

Love Like a Dagger Written listening to Julie Jacklin – When the Family Flies In All the tallest walls, Deepest dungeons, Highest castle keeps, Cannot guard you from being hurt by those you love. Of all the weapons invented, All the cruelest devices ever conceived, From all the twisted creative ways to torture a human being, There is no comparison to betrayal. I would rather suffer a thousand deaths, Than to feel the loss of love, The darkest neglect, a void where trust once was, Rendered at the hands of family or friend. Love is like a fine medicine, Lifesaving, Destiny altering, And the lack thereof the most potent poison. Being pierced through, With endless sorrows, Pure horror, But there is no sound, just emptiness. Absent love like a dagger, Laced with betrayal, Is delivered in the back, Straight to the heart.

Crucible by Samusmerid Written - 9/1/2020 Listening to: Croquet Club – You Left Me This life will fill you with wonder, It will take your breath away, It will tickle your feet on the seashore, And all at once, will swallow you whole. How can a human feel so full of hope and defeated at the same moment? There must be more than this flesh and blood to be able to endure in this way, As the nature of existence is crushing, How can one fly upon a thought of mind or fleeting of heart and still stand amid constant defeat? I am, therefore I continue to be forged in the crucible that is waking and breathing, Crushed under the magnitude that is survival and providing, Where my crystal dreams are reduced and poured when faced with white-hot expectation, And folded, over and over and over again, each failure a purpose found carefully crafted anew. In my breaking, I have found new strength, In each new stretch forward I fall short, But each and every time, I come one step closer than