Padore’s Box by Samus-Merid

“I love you as I always have, and I always will…”

If I had all the world, I would trade it for your love,
And bare no guilt or burden to its loss,
And much like your sisters, your box is dangerous to those who know it,
Just as knowledge is dangerous, so are the treasures of knowing you.

In the memory of all my sadness, pain, guilt, loss, darkness, hatred, fear and jealousy,
The wound that struck the deepest was the loss of the soft, precious and tender light of your love,
And yes it’s true, I miss it, I miss it still.
And I have come to find, I still don’t know how to let you go.

All your treasures that are most dangerous to me, the ones that make this box, and my heart overflow,
Are the memories of your smile, of your touch, or your kind words, of your love…
Cruel as it would seem, that there must be a reign of silence between us,
It may only be to keep us from acting at the wrong times, in the wrong places.

Through the paths of thorns and jagged loss I drug myself through every day for over a year,
Hard lessons are learned to survive,
And I learned something very important,
That there is a place in time for every moment, which is where they are meant to pass.

Our moments, were premature, though I wouldn’t trade them for anything,
And it means so much to me that you understand this,
And it is my humble prayer that you will be watched over,
And kept safe from anything that might change the light that shines from you.

I love you Padore, and all the memories that fill your box are precious to me,
But my life calls in a direction I know you cannot follow me into,
And who knows if it is you who will be first to meet me at the end of this journey,
But wherever your path takes you, I hope you will find the light you were always meant to shine with.

Precious and no longer that one beautiful secret,
And though the secret is no more, your life is bright and beautiful, as you have always been,
Aspire to always be better, follow the ambitions you outline with your dreams,
And know you are always loved, by someone more than I am, forever and ever.